A friend told me this would all end at 10yrs. For a while I thought I was getting closer to tucking my feelings away. It’s like the song “This Town by Niall Horan” – Everything comes back to you….. It’s not that I’m not happy in my life because I am. It’s not even that I would leave this life if given the opportunity because I wouldn’t.

Every so often something happens that pulls me back in and escape seems impossible. It’s a text or a phone call to me from someone looking for you. It’s the running in circles you were once part of that I had no idea. I honestly don’t even know I want to escape. I miss the passion, the I can’t breath with out you obsessive love. If I’m honest there isn’t a day you evade some thought, some memory. The aching and longing comes and goes and sometimes with such fierceness it’s hard to think about anything else.

How do I feel this so strongly? Is there a mutual connection? Will I find you again later in life?

Until that day, I love you and I let you go…….